How about THIS: If anyone wants to talk about THINGS, send me a tumblr message. Personal things, too. I am always down to chat with followers AND I’ll be at work all day tomorrow when I do most of my tumbling. c:
i just rememberd a really embarrassing daydream I used to have and it made me realize how fucking long ago it was that SSBB was announced. ugh.
For anyone curious it was when I had to go on vacation with my family to Hawaii (I know what you’re thinking, HAD to go to Hawaii? Well you don’t know my family, I would have rather stayed home) and we would be walking down the beach and I would be BORED and lonely because they’re kind of vacuous people and I would imagine one of my friends popping out of the bushes and saying “IT’S SHOW TIME-UH” ala Snake in the Brawl reveal trailer god what a fucking lame thing to admit
the point is, that was a LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG fucking time ago. granted that game got delayed a bunch, i feel old as fuck.
it’s part of an issue with me though, I was amazingly surprised by fantastic things a few times as a kid and so sometimes I like to imagine that against all odds, my friends and/or family or lovers/friends have orchestrated some AMAZING surprise for me. it only really serves to let me down because things like that don’t happen anymore lol.
So when people leave, I’ve learned the secret: let them. Because, most of the time, they have to.
Let them walk away and go places. Let them have adventures in the wild without you. Let them travel the world and explore life beyond a horizon that you exist in. And know, deep down, that heroes aren’t qualified by their capacity to stay but by their decision to return.
Thank you to streetpass for tagging me in a “six random facts” post. I know it took awhile but here are six random facts about me to stop me from cleaning my room and doing anything productive.
I have a hard time communicating with people and trusting people. I don’t like to discuss my problems with others because I always feel like I’m burdening them and they are just trying to be nice to me. It seems like people will betray your trust and it’s not something I take lightly. I tend to internalize things but I am working on this and getting a lot better.
I do not take compliments well at all. I either believe that the other person is lying to me for some likely unforeseen reason or I get completely flustered and shut down. There is no middle ground.
My first memories are playing Super Mario Bros. 1, 2 and 3 on the NES in the apartment complex I lived in at the ages of two or three. It would be years before I could read, but I knew that I liked the one in the yellow box the most. My mom would often play with me and once she left the NES on overnight so she didn’t have to start the game over and I turned it off so I could play something. :x She did end up beating it when I was a child.
I have a preference for characters that have obscured eyes/faces. Characters with masks are instantly more interesting to me and I think it’s because it gives them something to hide behind. It’s a way to shield their true self from the outside world. It also gives them an instantly mysterious vibe. Proto Man, Meta Knight, the phanto mask—any character that wears a mask becomes more interesting to me.
I seem very unmotivated because of my depression. I start to think about doing something new or unfamiliar and I panic and almost have an anxiety attack that I won’t be able to learn, I’ll embarrass myself or I won’t be the best at it and I lock up and do nothing instead. It hinders me from meeting people, going places and doing things I would probably excel at and very much enjoy. I am working on my depression and anxiety each day but traits you’ve learned over the course of 10+ years can be hard to break. This falls in with the trust issue, because if I don’t put myself out there or try anything new, I won’t get hurt. It’s safer, but ultimately, a miserable kind of existence.
I am in a very lost state of mind lately. I bounce from thinking one thing about my situation one day and the opposite a few days later. The bottom line is that there is someone out there that I care very deeply for but things have go—you know what? fuck it. I’m left-handed.
And unfortunately I’m not going to tag people. The people I follow don’t do things like this, but if they’d like to, they can tag me and say I tagged them. :P